What made you stop being an addict?

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

And I can also talk to them now.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Are you worried that the 2024 US presidential election will result in a close race?

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

What are some examples of the use of the word “piacere” in Italian? What do they mean and how would you translate them into English?

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

Is spinach easy to grow?

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

What was your most embarrassing wardrobe malfunction in public?

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

Read that again ☝️

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

What is a common thought that keeps people up at night? Why do some people experience this?

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

Do you consider masturbating to porn cheating if you are married?

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

I did it in my administrator's office.

Why is my vagina swollen, it’s very itchy. I had sex we used protection, but day after it felt like my insides had a heartbeat as well as itching, the pulsing has went away but it is still itchy and my discharge is yellow, i'm 15, what could it be?

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

What are your funniest "lost in translation" moments if you grew up speaking more than one language?

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

How come I can't stay sober?

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Just keep trying

What are some common lies that addicts may tell themselves?

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

Can being annoyed be a sign of getting angry?

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

Why do I keep dreaming of my mom, who recently passed away from cancer, still being sick and in pain?

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

What is your daily motivation and does it work?

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

This was February 2019.